Yo,

It's been almost a full year since I wrote here.  After just reading my post from last year, those feelings seem so foreign to me now.  I don't know if it's just this weekend or just a build up of everything from this year but to say the least I'm ready to go home.
This time last year a really awful thing happened that was completely unfair and came close to ruining a lot of peoples lives.  Having been reminded of it all again and how upset it makes people is truly awful and breaks my heart completely.
A mix of this and what's going on with uni and college is really dragging me down.  I'm letting a lot of people get on my nerves recently which is exhausting.  I'm not really enjoying uni anymore as I can't think creatively so it's just not cutting it.  I'm head's not in it and I'm getting easily distracted.  I have a feeling my grades will be pretty average this semester. I will literally procrastinate everything, I just cleaned my makeup brushes instead of finishing writing this.

I'm so unsure about everything.  I don't want these feelings, I don't want this shit. It's easy to distract myself with social media, movies and doing nothing.  I'm in such a middle state with everything and I don't know what I want.

I'm just done