It's been a while...

Wow

It's been a while since I've been on this blog.  It was only yesterday when I read through what I had written during 2012.  It's so weird to compare how I was feeling then to how I feel now.  There has been such a massive change in pretty much every aspect of my life.  It's made me a much happier person and I feel like I'm headed in the right direction for once in my life.  All the shit that I went through and also put myself through has made me a different person.  Hopefully for the better as well.  I can tell myself that there is a difference in my emotions and how I view myself and the people around me.  I don't care if no one else has noticed; it only matters to me.

I made it through the rest of school with minimal injury.  My mindset has changed.  My whole being has changed I think.  I'm slowly becoming a different person; becoming a better version of myself.  I'm not putting up with anyone's bullshit and not giving a fuck simultaneously.  I've stopped drinking as much and have started leading a healthier life.  I've cut out all the negative people in my life, which has really made a difference.

I must admit that this year, I have made some serious mistakes that I wish I had've thought about more.  Nevertheless, it's made me develop and think more before I act.  This year I've also had some of the best times and I wouldn't change that at all.  How I see it is that it can only really get better from here.  Your life is supposed to be filled with ups, downs and flips and shit.  It's never supposed to be on a straight line with you're existing and not actually living.

I'm having one of those moments where I need to write everything that I'm thinking and feeling.  I need to just get this out of my head for a bit.  It's clear to me that no one actually reads this blog that I know so I don't really give a fuck at all.  So if you're reading this and you know me personally; I will kill you if you mention that you're read this.  Just saying.

Anyway I'm pretty much done now anyway.  I really need to be doing some other things that really need to be done.  So yeah I, need to get my ass into motion right now.

Okay, over and out